I can be such a bitch...
You know what makes me dislike myself even more? When I explain to some people why I'm so horrible and undeserving of the family and friends I have, they just say that I'm not. They say that I'm like the nicest person they know and that I probably only get mad easily because of the stress of Year 12... but I know it's not just cause of that. They've never seen me when I've gotten mad and screamed myself hoarse. I need to learn how to control my temper. I always lash out at my family for stupid reasons. Sometimes I don't even know where all the anger comes from, but it's like I can't think of anything else once I feel that way. I just, I don't even know how to explain the feeling. I have to learn how to control my temper and stop acting like/being a stupid dumb bitch.

The day I thought I'd never get through, I got over you...

I was just listening to this song, and it kinda struck me how right the timing seemed to be. It doesn't hurt at all, any more. It's not that I thought I'd never get through in my case though. More that I thought it would be a lot longer before thinking of you didn't make me upset any more. I'm really glad that the memories are mainly just good ones now. =]

You know, I've been thinking about everything a lot recently, and now that I think about it, I honestly don't think I'm going to miss school as much as I thought I would... I guess it's just that like many people have said, it's time we moved on. After all, there are many bad memories to leave behind as well, although I think I could say that they are probably cancelled out by so many good ones. I think that made more sense in my head. :S Yeah, so basically there are just so many things I have to look forward to right now, and it feels so good to know that I'll be completely free of Year 12 soon. :)