Worthless.

Actually scared of talking to you, cool.

I'm not going to waste my time on people who don't actually care.

You'll only care if/when something extremely drastic happens.

Looks like you've already made your decision.

I wish I was already out of the country.

99% of the time, when I finally decide to trust someone properly, it's a big mistake.

Destructive.

At least I know for certain that there are two people who I'll never ever lose.

Don't expect anything and you'll never be disappointed, yup.

It's never been worth it.

I'm never any good at anything especially when it matters.

Believe me, I would have moved out a long time ago if I could have.

Kind of feels like I'm being forced to want a relationship, ugh. :c

I can't even be okay, because I have to be the good person. I can't just tell people to leave me alone even when talking to them is what I want the least right now.

No matter what I do, it will never be good enough for you.

So not good at this.

Thank you for lying to protect me, but I was going to find out the truth eventually anyway. At least you still care though.

I feel like at least something out of what I said today may have gotten through to you for a change. I just hope I'm right... Because things need to get better. It's been like this for too long.

It's funny; I was just rereading some of my old posts from another blog and found several about you and how I was so happy that we had become close again and were spending so much time together. And now all I can think is that I don't ever want to spend time with you like that ever again.

The only time when everything seems really really okay is when I can immerse myself in photography/illustrating and listen to music.

I'm never good at deciding which friendships/relationships are worth spending time on, and clearly I don't always choose well. Ugh. Regardless of that, some things are really screwed up when I really (let myself) think about them. :/

You're just as bad as everyone else. You have no right to say anything about anyone when you're like this.

I'm not good at dealing with even the idea of relationships or patching up friendships or staying friends with people I don't particularly like anymore. And I definitely can't deal with you, of all people. I can't stand trying to put up with you day after day. So much for things being better between us.

Things are definitely going downhill if I want you back this badly...

When I actually stop and let myself think about you, I actually really miss you, as happy as I am most of the time at the moment.

She deserves so much better, and you deserve to be kicked in the face.

Everything is a mess. but at least she's okay.

Your actions completely disprove your words. Makes perfect sense... :/

Everything always seems to be going really well until she decides what is 'true' and won't listen when I try to correct whatever she thinks. Because once she's decided something for herself, nothing anyone else says can possibly be true, or make even the slightest amount of sense to her. I give up.

Nothing's ever going to be the same  completely alright again. If only I could just leave everything behind.

I don't think I ever want to put my trust in you ever again.

I've never wanted to get away from everyone and everything more than I do right now. I know there are several people I can trust, but I don't know who I should trust with knowing certain things, and I've been given so many conflicting opinions/'facts' about other things that I don't know what to think.

I have a feeling this isn't worth it.

It has never been harder to get along with you and stop myself from showing how you make me feel.

You don't even listen to a single word I say...

I'm really glad we actually became friends and all, but it's really hard to understand you at times. Well at least talking isn't so awkward now. :)

Yeah, I miss you. Wish you actually cared though, instead of just talking to me when you need a favour. >.<

Damn it. So much for being completely past this. This is why I hate promises...

It's so weird looking back at how things were, just a year and a half ago, and how you two have switched roles, but to the extreme, I suppose... I think it's good though, but it just, I don't even know how to explain it, but it just seems like the strangest thing.

I wish they had cared, at least a little bit.

It's not worth at, at least not for me, not yet.

I'm not even good at anything any more. Everything's so frustrating at the moment and I can't even draw to help myself relax and stop thinking so much that it hurts...

99% certain I don't have a chance. But oh well, not the most important thing in life.

Getting along is never going to work as long as we're in the same house.

:'c

I shouldn't care so much, but oh man, I really really hope I have a chance...

I can't, I just cannot do this. I need a new life, I want to start over, completely on my own. No family, nothing.

Hmm, still want to start life over... :/

You are so selfish. I don't even understand how you can be like that. After everything they do for you, and you can't even do one simple thing to help out. Ever. You always have some excuse no matter what. You're pathetic.

I just want to move somewhere far away, and start life over, completely.

People can be so overrated sometimes, for goodness sake. I just want to get away from everything. :(

'You need to learn to think, and look after him. Help out for a change, etc, etc.' Are you kidding me! The thought didn't even cross my mind. It's not like I'm trying to be selfish or anything. dsiufh dkghndfjk

Good reminder as to why I ignore any possible feelings, ha.

No idea why I thought anything would actually happen, damn it aha.

I hope if nothing else I can at least make you smile and bring something good into your life.

But I still wish I could completely hold you together myself; I hate what's happening to you, and that I can't fix it all, and make things okay again.

It sounds like you're in almost exactly the same situation as me. I feel like that should make me feel better about everything, but it doesn't. It feels like it doesn't change a thing.

I don't even know any more. What is my life.

I think I just need to get away from everything for a while... Merr.

Really need to stop worrying about what others think in regards to my opinions and beliefs... :/

People control and judge others too much instead of accepting them the way they are.

'Look at me, you may think you see who I really am, but you'll never know me' This applies to you perfectly, aha. If you didn't make so many assumptions, things would be so different.

Scared my boss will hate me cause I'm on work cover for two weeks. D: He did try to say my injury was my fault but I guess at least he still went through with the work cover stuff cause of dad talking to him... :/

I wish I could go back a day and change everything. :(

I'm already becoming someone I never wanted to be.

I don't know if I'm getting better or worse, or both... :S

I don't feel like I know where I'm going with anything these days. I'm not the person I want to be, especially since I don't even know who I am right now...

Yeah, that was dumb haha. :(

Cannot do this.

Wow... I can't believe they were right. :') I definitely needed that. :)

Just when I think things are finally improving, I slip up somehow. Whether it's a small mistake or not, it always seems to make a big difference.

Screw you. You're as ridiculous and patronising as ever. What the hell man. >.<

'seems i’ve crossed a line again
for being nothing more than who i am'


Can relate way too well to this right now. :(

Fml. The past few weeks have possibly been the worst in a long long time. Le sigh.

I know it's stupid, but I don't want to stop.

I feel like shutting everyone out too; I just feel like curling up in a corner somewhere away from the entire world.

Of course you cancel after suggesting we hang out. I shouldn't have expected anything. Then I wouldn't have been disappointed.