Clueless

There are still two people that I miss more than anything... And I don't know how to change that... I don't know how to completely forget them, or become friends with them again, or even acquaintances. With one of them, the main problem is that I don't think I've forgiven myself completely, yet they have forgiven me... although so many people have told me that I did nothing wrong. I wish I had done everything differently though. /Sigh.

Argh, my friend just told me that I've changed his life, that I showed him what real friends mean and that he didn't have any one before he met me. I mean, I guess that's a good thing, that I've been a good friend to him and all but it just makes me feel guilty because I know I didn't end up being a good friend to her. I didn't even try to talk anything out... just got annoyed at her because of what she was doing and didn't speak to her about it. I just ended up telling her straight out what I and others could see/thought. erat98ogiufgiodjsfs Yay for another upset night... merrr.