No matter what I do, it will never be good enough for you.

So not good at this.

Thank you for lying to protect me, but I was going to find out the truth eventually anyway. At least you still care though.

I feel like at least something out of what I said today may have gotten through to you for a change. I just hope I'm right... Because things need to get better. It's been like this for too long.

It's funny; I was just rereading some of my old posts from another blog and found several about you and how I was so happy that we had become close again and were spending so much time together. And now all I can think is that I don't ever want to spend time with you like that ever again.

The only time when everything seems really really okay is when I can immerse myself in photography/illustrating and listen to music.

I'm never good at deciding which friendships/relationships are worth spending time on, and clearly I don't always choose well. Ugh. Regardless of that, some things are really screwed up when I really (let myself) think about them. :/