The situation's too similar. Way too similar. Whether that's true or not... It's still all too alike. I don't want the same thing to happen all over again. It's actually freaking me out now... :S

I was terrified that I was losing you... I know I saw you when we went out and hung out at people's places, but we didn't really see each other, or talk. It just felt like forever since we had talked properly and I couldn't, and still can't afford to lose you. I have to say that I'm really relieved that we were able to talk properly today, just us, even if it was only for about twenty minutes. It still meant a lot and now you know that I was terrified of losing you, and it turns out you felt the same about me.

I'm so glad that you're all okay now and that we're good friends again. It tore me apart seeing how badly she treated you and how it affected you so much and the relationships you had with the people around you... I don't even know how to express how thankful I am that you found some one else instead, some one who treats you the way you deserve to be treated, and how thankful I am that I have you back again as a best friend. I always love every minute that I get to spend with both of you and him as well. Although... I have to admit that I am slightly worried about her trying to get in touch with you again. She has no right to interfere with your life again. :@

Better and worse.

I was so excited when I found out that you have freedom again, well some sort of freedom anyway. I'm so glad that you're able to stay in contact with the people you trust... :) Although now that something is going right... something else has to get worse. It was so awkward being at your house today with them two and you were with her and you didn't even want to be near us because those two dislike her and the way you are with her... You acted as if we were barely friends... euskhfosdifsdhfgsdhglidfu and cancelled our plans to celebrate with her. I thought I mattered to you... enough so that you wouldn't cancel our plans completely just for her. :(

Enrolling for Uni = sdirfgtdfuihosdf

Ugh. The uni enrolment stuff is screwing with my head. sfidshifugsdgiukhs. I'm definitely looking forward to starting a new chapter of my life though. But still... :/ I just feel too tired and worried to even concentrate on trying to make sense out of a jumble of information. 

On a slightly happier note, he's not as submissive as everyone seems to think he is and is actually better at standing up for himself than a lot of people gave him credit for as well. I'm really glad that he said he's trying to make the effort to hang out with others and get to know people better. :) :) 

Oh and an update on the person I was worried about... She lost her phone which is the only reason she didn't reply to any of my texts, thank goodness. But she did say that she had a lot to tell me, which is definitely worrisome. D:

>.< I don't know why I have to care so much. I actually trust you but really, you're just letting yourself be completely screwed over and again and again if you're keeping her as the most important person in your life and if you ignore all your other friends when she's talking to you.  sidfgskhdfuisf I would love to punch her in the face so much right now.

You make me sad. Why can't you just do what you said you would? or maybe you just want me to know that you don't care about catching up any more... :(

Also, she's being horrible to him even though he did nothing, and it's making me feel even sadder. Argh, why are people so stupid and horrible???!?! /Gets angry face on. Merrr :( Oh and now I'm worried that he's getting his hopes up way too high, about her still wanting to be friends aoyrfhsdyugsdfjkh

I miss you... I just miss you... I can't even explain it... I don't know... I guess you were one of them that I felt the most comfortable around... I was never nervous about texting you or wanting to talk to you... I never worried that you might find me annoying or my worries stupid or that you might judge me or anything like that...

:D Glad I said ended up saying hi to you just then and that we had that 2 minute conversation. Gotta say that I'm extremely glad that you only didn't reply to my text because you have no credit, but even so, I still dislike how short a leash your girlfriend seems to have you on. -____-

It's not better yet, no, not by a long shot. Argh, yet again, I made the stupid mistake of looking at photos someone had uploaded on to Facebook, and yet again saw photos of him. But he looked really happy, so I'm happy for him. There's no way I'm going to take my friend's advice and email him, because I don't want to risk ruining that and if he's no longer thinking about the past, it's good that way. As long as he's happy, I'm okay with being sad at times.